There is nowhere in any dictionary, thesaurus, or wikipedia that can define what my idea of parenting is. According to any of these sources it's just a matter of rearing a child. There isn't a word mentioned in any of these locations that even comes close to the euphoria, confusion, sleeplessness, heartbreak, trainwreck that becomes your life the moment that your child comes into the world. Even with a healthy child each day has it's moments, let's be honest none of us are saints. Yet it amazes me how much you learn as a parent caring for a child with an illness. You seem to take this burden onto your shoulders without even a moment of hesitation. Previous to a conversation with someone close to me today I didn't even realize that what we are doing here and have been doing every single day isn't normal. It has just who we have become. Today my husband and I learned from the home healthcare nurse how to care for Ryan's broviac and how to administer IV medications. Instead of getting upset about the situation it was heartwarming to see my husband taking on this challenge and listening to every detail and even being the one to flush the line and even give him his medicine without any assistance. Each day will come with it's share of trials and tribulations but each one will also bring us closer together as a husband and wife and as a family. This parenting thing isn't too bad, hopefully he is still this loveable as a teen!
Yes. We adapt to new levels of normal when it comes to taking care of our children, and that is precisely what you're doing. You'll be amazed when you look back on this at the strength you had all along. Certainly it comes to some degree from all that love you have for your child, but there is also an innate strength--one that not everyone does have--that you're able to give here. Thinking of you all as you begin this phase of your journey. xo ~Timaree
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